My heart…

So…last week was kind of rough eating wise! My husband was in Haiti for 9 days so for 6 of those, we went and stayed with my parents because well, I’m a big chicken 😉 Well, I didn’t plan well enough and so I ended up not eating like I wanted to last week but you know what, I’m not beating myself up over it because that is what I did in the past. Now I am looking ahead, I know I have the victory over this already, in Christ and so I know on this journey there will be moments like that but the overall theme I want this journey to health to be is that I don’t give up, that I think about the big picture and my WHY of why I need and am wanting to do this! So this week has been much better and I am thankful for that! I think my body is going through a detox, but I figured since I was addicted to sugar so it will take some time!

So I look forward to when I can run again, when I can do all sorts of things without running out of breath, without being in so much pain due to health issues, inflammation & food allergies. When I got to my best health before I got pregnant with Micaiah I felt like I could do anything. The energy was tremendous and I wasn’t in pain and I slept great! I remember that and I aim to get back to that! This is me the day I found out I was pregnant with Micaiah. 479925_4886907888005_54531668_n4 years later and over 100 lbs more now, I’ve yo yo’d a thousand times or at least it’s felt that way. I’ve almost given up thinking I just will never get that mindset again but you know what, God isn’t finished with me yet and especially with what Jim and I feel God is calling us to do next in our life, I know I need to get healthy!

I want to honor God in all I do and one area I’ve failed is when it comes to food and taking care of my body which is a “temple” so to speak because the Holy Spirit lives inside of me now! I have failed so much that I wonder why He doesn’t give up on me but He reminds me of His grace. I am thankful He can look inside my heart and see my dark, see my sin, see my failures and yet because of what Jesus did on the cross, when He looks at me now, He sees the righteousness of His son! I know by honoring Him by having a healthy relationship with food and taking care of my body He’s given me, I will get to know Him more and then be able to make Him known more to the world and that is my heart’s desire! I know without a shadow of a doubt my food addiction is mainly a spiritual one but I know even more than that, that my God is stronger than ANYTHING and the same power that rose Jesus from the dead LIVES IN ME and since He lives in me, then I just need to walk in that boldness and confidence everyday and pray that He keeps me aware more of His presence and I can only imagine the impact and effect that will have on the way I eat!

So my friends, if you are walking this journey with me and struggling in certain areas as well, feel free to share in the comments below and I will commit to praying for you! If you are already on a healthy journey then I kindly ask for you to be a prayer warrior for me and pray for my journey! Thank you all so much!

April (3)

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  1. Girl, I’m right there with you. I lost so much weight but never reached my goal weight. Then I hit rock bottom with anxiety and depression. I was on some medication that made me gain 25 pounds and I can’t seem to get it off. Praying for you and your journey!

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  2. You have a beautiful way of putting your heart, your faith & your journey into words! Continuing to pray for you!

    Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.

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